In 3 days it will be 5 years since my mom passed away...in 3 days I will relive that day in my head, the moment I arrived just minutes too late but still in time to see her one last time. In 3 days I will celebrate her life with my kids now 10 and 5. We will release ladybugs as we have done every year on August 3rd since her death.
This year for what ever reason was especially hard for me...Mother's Day this year brought a clear void or a hole that I hadn't felt in previous years. I cried this year just longing for one more hug, conversation, smile, or pep talk.
This year for whatever reason has been the hardest....for what ever reason I have secretly struggled this year. I have thought about her a lot this year I have wished for her comfort and advice. I have needed a mom hug only my mom could give. I have needed her strength that even when facing death she had. I have needed her pep talk that it will all work itself out, that my hard work is enough.
In 3 days we will celebrate her life...
